One day I talk about hypothetical babies... the next day I talk about heartbreak. That's the life course we're on right. That's our path. Its a bumpy hilly ride.
one thing I often forget about is my self-worth. Tricky subject... big word? maybe. Certainly complicated.
One thing I forget about is what's the big deal?
I don't know how to have fun anymore... I'm sometimes so scared with the results of me cutting loose. Saying what I really mean.
Hear-ache doesn't go away... it doesn't get less confusing. It doesn't get easier. I am lost in my own head. I'm not sure if I'll ever surface. I'm not sure how I lost myself... I don't know where I went. I don't know where I'm going. I don't know what just happened. I do know that I'm sad, I'm confused, I'm lonely, I'm embarrassed, I'm scared... I feel tired.
I'm not drunk. I'm emotional. I'm torn between crawling into bed, sleeping away my confusion... or going out and trying to forget it. Both cases I think I'll end up right where I am.
Alone. Asleep.
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